Looks like I have had to cave to deal with body pain in my left arm and hand and now I have to wear a brace.
I noticed during Creativ Festival when my sheets hit the floor. I bent over to pick up the sheets and it seemed my hand was struggling to grab the paper. My tactile senses were off giving me a sense I was grabbing onto the sheets but they weren’t. It caught my attention immediately thinking. Something was wrong.
I started to do massage therapy in my arm and wrist. Talk about painful. Maybe a pinched nerve or just strained. I’m so busy and feel a lot of self pressure to be successful, for me to relax and take a moment to myself is rare and very difficult for me to do so.
Over the past few months, the pain has got worse and in my left hand of all things. I’m right handed, I would think that that my right hand would be the one acting up.
Regardless, I’m injured and need to figure out solutions. I think there is a few reasons why I am suffering. While it seems obvious it could be crochet related, I am more leaning toward computer usage as the cause.
Let’s face it, I’m addicted to the computer and work on it virtually every waking moment. When I am not on the computer, I am crocheting to prepare for my next day’s worth of content. I am pretty certain that it’s years and years and even more years of computer usage that has worn on me.
This year, I am turning 41 at the end of this month. I have to say to you. Though I may not look 41, I feel it and feel probably older than 41. I am so stunned how fast my body and movements in my body have depleted.
Things I never thought much about are things that are fears today. I fell on some ice a couple years ago during a live show of mine. I sprained my leg but still taught all day. I thought I had broken my leg it was so painful. Just thinking about my fall and dragging my body along the ice to the front door of the store crying and begging for help. I swear I can feel the pain when remembering. Today, I if I see ice, my legs get weak remembering my fall. Suddenly walking on ice with confidence as turned me into a shake octopus on skates. This fear is helping me fall because I am over compensating.
So now, I am trying to get used to wearing a brace on my hand. My hand hurts when I bend it. I noticed when I sleep, I tend to bend my wrist under the pillow or my body. I think the constant bending of my wrist is helping it hurt more.
Even my posture of standing with my hands looking like a wounded meerkat stand up with their wrist bend over. Well, I think it could be my personality over the years of standing like that has helped this… I think my wrists are bent at a 90% angle too much and is causing my issues.
I noticed with my new brace that I can feel the muscles moving in my arm inside the brace. You never really realize how many muscles are moving with each stitch. It’s kinda surprising to be honest with you.
So I am not going to give up crochet. Crochet is my passion, my job and my expression of creativity… There has to be a solution without me having to give up something I love. Time will only tell.