Mikey Finds Courage with Busy Lizzy
While attending a CHA Designer Retreat in Innisfil Ontario, I nearly had a breakdown. I felt like a child with a quivering lip of thinking, “I can’t do that!” I was immediately taken back to grade 4 of sitting in my chair with the teacher yelling at me to figure my answers out when, in fact, it was too hard for me.
I arrived at the retreat and we all had to customize our name tags. While most of these ladies are giggling and creating masterpieces in just minutes. All I seen was duct tape, sheets of paper, thing-a-ma-jigies that I don’t know what they are. I was screwed.
I tried to be a man about it thinking this is going to be a piece of cake. Like a dog needing to go out for a serious pee after the owner has been gone for a full work day and then decided to go out for drinks before returning home, I was pacing back and forth. Each pass I was getting desparate thinking, ‘what in the hell do I do with this stuff’. ‘Dammit Jim, I’m a yarn artist, not paper, glue and scissors.
Though everyone has been amazing at this retreat so far, Busy Lizzy, Fibre Artist is here and she’s a Crochet Crowder. She immediately gravitated to me when I arrived. She identified that I was struggling and all I had was components picked out but I didn’t know what to do with them. Everyone’s badges were so pretty and here mine is in pieces with me ready to have a nervous breakdown. Busy Lizzy came up to me realizing I need help and sat me down at a table with a glue gun.
Long story short, I’m always telling people to allow their imaginations to flow, open their minds, create and much more… and here I am in front of something that is kicking my ass. Busy Lizzy was patient for 15 minutes giving me the permission to be creative. “Just start somewhere Mikey and build. I put down my border and then my brain seemed to open up my the Red Sea. My awakening wasn’t instant but as I worked on it, which took me nearly 2 hours, ideas, and the thought of ‘I can’t’ turned into ‘why not’.
In the end, it all came together in a way that I am so proud of. I crocheted the purple area to have my own creativity as part of my badge. Simply meaning I wanted something hand made on it. I realized that if I had an attitude of ‘why not’ instead of ‘I can’t’, it means I don’t need permission to let me creative brain relax and go.
I’m totally going to frame this when I get home. I talked to Diva Dan last night and he was like, ‘it just screams you’, whether that’s good or bad is a whole other ball of wax.