I was just watching a video, that was an ad, come across as I was listening to music. The ad was showcasing how we can get rich and materialistic things. I rolled my eyes knowing that the secret to life isn’t about what you accumulate. Man, that sounds so selfish.
I was taught growing up that money should be focus and my ultimate goal. I could never make enough money, even though I lived comfortably. I was striving for more and more. I realized that my ceiling limit is impossible to reach.
The Crochet Crowd was created 8 months prior to the video presentation was being filmed below. I had money, I had a home and my life was still upside down. I was not where I should have been in life. While many people now go after YouTube and try to achieve YouTube Celebrity Status when the odds are stacked against you, I didn’t set my course on YouTube with the hopes to make money. I didn’t even know it was possible at the time.
I was on YouTube because I was lost. Voiceless. Lonely and in my own way reaching out for help to find people like me to pull me through.
While feeling broken and at one of the lowest points in my life, I was swimming in my own emotional soup trying to crawl out of the bowl. I used a lot of my crochet time to re-evaluate the goals I had been taught.
In the 8 months prior to this, I had felt such joy and warmth by sharing myself through crochet to others who I never met. The joy was bigger than a payday. Even more to me, it lasted a lot longer to pull myself through.
I had some emotional videos online at the time. I will never forget an email from a gay couple in Florida. They reached out to me to share some advice. Remove your emotionally distraught videos offline as people are turning to me to share my teaching gift of crochet. Use that gift to get yourself through your situation as the joy you feel teaching is undeniable. They talked about how if I see myself as hurt in videos and people feel sorry for me, it will only make my journey a lot longer to get through. If you pick up a positive attitude and radiate positivity to others, it will come back to you pushing you faster to where you need to be in life. I was hit pretty hard with this advice and just like that, I removed off my emotionally hurt videos, and started to learn more crochet stitches to once again pick up and teach.
I would come to meet Daniel a month later and he has never seen this video below. At the time, I had filmed many segments and put them together as a montage. In the one day I would need it to remember my journey. To remember that life isn’t sorted out unless I untangle the journey myself. That life isn’t easy but there’s always tomorrow to get through. To remind myself that I had to put one foot in front of the other and say goodbye to my comfort zone and trek into a new future that I would have to create for myself.
My friends of The Crochet Crowd, to change something in your life, it starts with you. You don’t like something, change it. If you are staring at the wall wishing for something in your life, put your feet to the ground and think about the steps you need to take to get there. There are some things we can change and there are other things we just have to tromp on through. My crochet to me is my self coping mechanism in life to allow me to think and process my journey.
Sharing a part of myself through teaching crochet and running The Crochet Crowd has given me joy unlike any other. Even more, to do it and give it away for free to who all that interested in learning will be my legacy.
This video was filmed in 2008. Be advised, it’s a heavy video.